I slept horribly. How to find a position where my arm is elevated was nothing less than impossible that first night. The following night I made sure to have extra pillows on hand and that made it a tad better.
Dressing and undressing, showering, all take effort and I was so tired afterwords. Still I got creative as in the blow drying of my hair. The show must go on in my daily life after all! Still there is much I am unable to do. My Love, K. and B. help out greatly. Cooking duty is off my list unless you count stirring and light duties, but I feel more in the way than of help.
My appointment with Dr. S. is four days later after my ER visit. My first day driving the freeway and I do fine. More x-rays after all I already have had (I counted nine) and then he will try to schedule me in for surgery on Friday of that week. I need to get blood work and an EKG which I do once I leave his office. My mind is just set on "Getting this show going!" I want it all over and to have my life back.
Yes, life goes on. Ryan started his first week of High School. My Love starts a big job where he is not able to really help out as much as he would have liked to but I do have K. here though I am disappointed as we can't do fun stuff that I thought we would. I want her to have fun and not nursemaid me. I want to be out of the heavy splint/cast that wear. Though I need to wear a sling I rarely carry the weight on my neck for fear my neck will get in a fix. I have joked that slings should come in decorative prints or with some bling on them. Mine is black and while it doesn't show any dirt I do have to clean lint and dog hair off it daily.
At last the day comes for my surgery. I asked my sister by marriage to take me and K. and B. will bring me home. I felt calm simply because I knew it was out of my hands. I need to fill out more paperwork, sign them then wait. S. stays with me even though I tell her I am fine that she can leave me. No she stays and I am grateful that I have this wonderful woman in my life.
My name is called and I tell S. goodbye. The nurse tells S. there will be much to be done and not much room for visitors. I followed the nurse past gurney beds, some with curtains drawn around them and others empty. Mine is the last bed in a second area. I am asked to remove all my clothes and put the gown that is on the bed on. I decide I should go pee one more time. I come back and draw the curtain and I place what I have in the plastic handled bag that is provided. I climb onto the bed and let them know I am done.
A young nurse pulls the curtain back and says she needs to put the compression hose on me. I laugh and say I will help as well as I can too. The hose are white and remind me of white tights I might have worn as a kid except they are not pantyhose. I joke as she struggles to pull them up, that all I need is a garter belt! Next I am covered with a warm blanket. The second mid age nurse asks me many questions that I answer for her. She has me mark the arm that I am to have surgery on with the Dr.'s initials, I. S. I sign some more papers. The young nurse has me put on a surgery cap which she calls my "Party Hat". She says they all are going to wear their party hats too.
Next comes the setting up of my I.V. which the mid age nurse did quickly and painlessly. She then moves on to my broken wrist and removes the splint/cast. She places a pad on top of a pillow and ever so gently washes my arm. The tender care, and her kind voice calm me and I almost have no concern for what is going to take place soon.
The two nurses done with the surgery prep close the curtains around me and I wait. I hear next to me a woman being told to "let the gas out". I wondered what she had done. I hear conversation of a Dr. to a family member of how the procedure went. It seems busy and active outside my curtained space.
My curtain is opened an the nurse says they need to move me to another area. I am rolled down near the door to the surgery suites. The nurses desk is near me and I overhear that my EKG workup as yet to have arrived and they are calling about it once again. I ask for a pillow to put under my knees as I feel uncomfortable laying flat. The two ladies next to me are not feeling well. They have migraines and are dehydrated. I find out they are sisters that are having colonoscopies. What an odd thing to do together.
I overhear them still calling about my EKG and them not having it. I also hear that my Dr. is not there yet as well. Patience I tell myself. Breath. Think of a pleasant event. My curtain is opened and my anesthesiologist Dr. L. comes in to introduce himself to me. We had talked on the phone the previous night where he asked a lot of questions and told me what kind of "cocktail" he would be giving me. It is nice to see him in person before he knocks me out. Everyone here is as nice as can be.
My curtain is opened one last time. They are at last ready to roll! My bed is wheeled into the Surgery Center's surgery suite. I have to transfer to the surgical table and that is when I fully understand what is going to take place. How silly I felt in my hospital gown, white compression hose, and my "party hat", attempting to transfer with my bad wrist held gently as I lift my tush to slide across. These nurses seeing "all", all day and everyday. I was cold and ask why it is chilly in here. My teeth begin to do the nervous/cold chatter. A warm blanket settles over me as the nurse explains that once the lamps overhead turn on it will get quite warm in here. I looked at those large lamps and try to imagine how bright they will be. Dr. L. says he is going to get started as Dr. S. will be in soon and that is all that I last remember. That simple. Out for several hours while my Dr. S. places a T-plate and screws in my damaged wrist.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Heard of Yarnbombing?
I read this article in our local paper this morning and was totally smitten with the idea! Really! Creating art in most unusual ways these people and it sure beats spray painting walls of buildings.
Yarnbombing brightens up East Bay cities
Contra Costa Times
Like many of his colleagues, James Jessie has seen the works by knit graffiti artist Streetcolor around Kensington.
These colorful, yarn-wrapped signposts along Colusa Circle, brighten up this quiet place, says Jessie, who works in this tiny Contra Costa County town.
"It's kind of fun," James says. "It's like a Berkeley kind of cool."
He pauses then asks: "What are they selling?"
Streetcolor, a name she goes by to avoid attention from the authorities, is selling nothing. She's "yarnbombing." She spends at least 12 hours a day spinning yarn, knitting pole cozies and has so far placed nearly 50 around Berkeley, Oakland and Kensington for others to enjoy.
Why?
"That's so complex to answer," she says during a phone interview. For starters, she says, she loves vessels and pieces of art that have a significant amount of color. She also likes huge sculpture, so having her knitted work stand tall on a large pole gives her some satisfaction.
She also likes that her art is free and immediate -- people can experience her pieces while they walk to the coffee shop or stroll through Berkeley's theater district.
"Our culture is into being free and immediate," she says. "Once I put them up and I saw how the knitting looked against sidewalks and roads and signs, I thought it was amazing. It's thrilling."
Finally, she says, she was inspired to color up her environment -- she lives in the East Bay --

after reading the book "Yarnbombing: The Art of Crochet Knit Graffiti" (Arsenal Pulp Press, $19.95) by Mandy Moore and Leanne Prain.
Prain, who lives in Vancouver, Canada, says a yarnbombing explosion began last year all over the world and is gaining steam in the United States.
"It's happening during the American recession," Prain says. "It's something you can do at home that's meditative. People are looking for something that gives a sense of joy right now, alternative ways to express themselves."
The motivations for knitters to do this painstaking and time consuming work are different for every person, Prain says.
"People knit for political reasons, street art reasons. But what we've found from all the groups we talked to is everybody is doing it out of a sense of joy," she says. "They feel happiness doing it, and they hope it brings a sense of happiness to other people."
Prain yarnbombs around Vancouver. She doesn't worry about what happens after she knits and places it in a public place.
"I've knit pieces that have been there for over and year and a half. People care take them," she says. "I've also knitted pieces that have been gone in a half-hour. The art of craftiness is making something and the rest is not important."
That's how Magda Sayeg of the yarnbombing group Knitta feels about her work. Sayeg is credited as being one of the first bombers and, although Knitta is now just herself rather than a group of people, the group's influence in this community is marked. For example, the "T" on the controversial "Herethere" sculpture on the Oakland/Berkeley border was covered with a yarnbomb last April. Although a nearby knitting store participated in the bombing, it was credited to Sayeg's Knitta group.
Sayeg, who now lives in Austin, Texas , started yarnbombing after knitting a piece for the doorknob of her small fashion boutique. Since then, making yarnbomb sculptures has become a full-time job, one that has brought her work to galleries in Rome, London and Bali.
"I like to beautify things," she says. "I like to put knitting on things that are ugly. To have this sweet universal language of knitting that's going on, I think it's incredibly powerful."
Streetcolor, who works with a helper she's named The Russian, has seen just a handful of her pieces taken down since she started this project about two months ago. And she no longer puts the pieces up in the dead of night. Instead, she decorates poles during the day, pausing to talk with people who ask questions. She likens it to street theater.
"The interaction is a big part of it," she says.
Streetcolor says she feels like she is turning graffiti on it's head.
"It's only going to be up for a while, and I think it enhances the area," she says. "It's just this momentary experience of it being more fun to be there."
Contra Costa Times
Like many of his colleagues, James Jessie has seen the works by knit graffiti artist Streetcolor around Kensington.
These colorful, yarn-wrapped signposts along Colusa Circle, brighten up this quiet place, says Jessie, who works in this tiny Contra Costa County town."It's kind of fun," James says. "It's like a Berkeley kind of cool."
He pauses then asks: "What are they selling?"
Streetcolor, a name she goes by to avoid attention from the authorities, is selling nothing. She's "yarnbombing." She spends at least 12 hours a day spinning yarn, knitting pole cozies and has so far placed nearly 50 around Berkeley, Oakland and Kensington for others to enjoy. Why?
"That's so complex to answer," she says during a phone interview. For starters, she says, she loves vessels and pieces of art that have a significant amount of color. She also likes huge sculpture, so having her knitted work stand tall on a large pole gives her some satisfaction.
She also likes that her art is free and immediate -- people can experience her pieces while they walk to the coffee shop or stroll through Berkeley's theater district.
"Our culture is into being free and immediate," she says. "Once I put them up and I saw how the knitting looked against sidewalks and roads and signs, I thought it was amazing. It's thrilling."
Finally, she says, she was inspired to color up her environment -- she lives in the East Bay --
after reading the book "Yarnbombing: The Art of Crochet Knit Graffiti" (Arsenal Pulp Press, $19.95) by Mandy Moore and Leanne Prain.
"It's happening during the American recession," Prain says. "It's something you can do at home that's meditative. People are looking for something that gives a sense of joy right now, alternative ways to express themselves."
The motivations for knitters to do this painstaking and time consuming work are different for every person, Prain says.
"People knit for political reasons, street art reasons. But what we've found from all the groups we talked to is everybody is doing it out of a sense of joy," she says. "They feel happiness doing it, and they hope it brings a sense of happiness to other people."
Prain yarnbombs around Vancouver. She doesn't worry about what happens after she knits and places it in a public place.
"I've knit pieces that have been there for over and year and a half. People care take them," she says. "I've also knitted pieces that have been gone in a half-hour. The art of craftiness is making something and the rest is not important."
That's how Magda Sayeg of the yarnbombing group Knitta feels about her work. Sayeg is credited as being one of the first bombers and, although Knitta is now just herself rather than a group of people, the group's influence in this community is marked. For example, the "T" on the controversial "Herethere" sculpture on the Oakland/Berkeley border was covered with a yarnbomb last April. Although a nearby knitting store participated in the bombing, it was credited to Sayeg's Knitta group.
Sayeg, who now lives in Austin, Texas , started yarnbombing after knitting a piece for the doorknob of her small fashion boutique. Since then, making yarnbomb sculptures has become a full-time job, one that has brought her work to galleries in Rome, London and Bali.
"I like to beautify things," she says. "I like to put knitting on things that are ugly. To have this sweet universal language of knitting that's going on, I think it's incredibly powerful."
Streetcolor, who works with a helper she's named The Russian, has seen just a handful of her pieces taken down since she started this project about two months ago. And she no longer puts the pieces up in the dead of night. Instead, she decorates poles during the day, pausing to talk with people who ask questions. She likens it to street theater.
"The interaction is a big part of it," she says.
Streetcolor says she feels like she is turning graffiti on it's head.
"It's only going to be up for a while, and I think it enhances the area," she says. "It's just this momentary experience of it being more fun to be there."
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Denver, CO~ Actually commisioned by City of Denver |
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Fitzroy, Australia |
Friday, September 10, 2010
Mom ~ The One Who Knows
The One Who Knows ~ Dar Williams
Time it was I had a dream
And you're the dream come true
And if I had the world to give
I'd give it all to you.
I'll take you to the mountains
I will take you to the sea
I'll show you how this life became
A miracle to me.
You'll fly away
but take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job's done, you'll be the one who knows.
All the things you treasure most
Will be the hardest won
I will watch you struggle on
For the answers come
But I won't make it harder
I'll be there to cheer you up
I'll shine the light that guides you down
The road you're walking on
You'll fly away
but take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job's done, you'll be the one who knows.
Before the mountains call to you
Before you leave this home
I will teach your heart to trust
As I will teach my own
But sometimes I will ask the moon
Where it shined upon you last
And shake my head and laugh me say
It all went by so fast
You'll fly away
but take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job's done, you'll be the one who knows.
I heard this song on the radio awhile back and fell in love with Dar William's voice and the lyrics to this song. Becoming a mother has been beyond all my expectations of what I imagined it could be. Granted there have been some difficult times. I did go on strike one time in the late 1980's as I felt no one appreciated all the work I did at home. That would be my dear daughters who were making huge messes in what we called the playroom/library/office. Dress-ups, Barbies with all the clothes and itty bitty shoes they had, books left in piles and Playmobile toys left out for days. Looking back I would love to repeat it all over, except the strike. I did however make a point and enforced in as gentle a way as possible that all had to be tidied up at the end of the day. Their friends needed to help or my dear daughters would have to do it by themselves. I would also give a 5 or 10 minute warning to get stated in cleaning up before the parents came to pick up their child. It did work too. My Love also began helping to enforce this as well and to give me a bit more help around the house.
My children have brought such joy to our lives, they have opened my eyes to the wonder of watching or listening to all that was new to them and to teen years that I wondered how we would survive. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I knew that my heart had been filled with profound motherly love. Birth with it's mystery and transformation to being a woman that filled the primal need to protect and nurture. Nesting was such a part of me. I was and am so extremely fortunate to have been a stay at home mom. To be a part of their growing years, their beginnings of success and the times something went amiss. The tears, those salty child tears that I wiped from their cheeks from hurts, a fight with their sister or friend, or just a needed cry of frustration. The many times I rocked back in forth in my rocker, child curled up, asleep, reading a story or singing. So much singing! Vacations to Tahoe I will hold most dear. The star filled sky above, the deep blue of the lake, the quiet, the laughter, the walks, the rafting, playing in the hot tube with squirt guns, BBQ's, family coming to stay and be together, Monopoly games till late at night, card games, board games....oh so many good times WE all had.
It is harder now with three grown daughters and a son that feels like he is an only child. Together times take juggling, there are jobs or distance that prevent our family vacations. We are in a phase of trying to please and create our time together but it has to be forgiven that it won't always happen.
My dearest family, I love you so. Thank you for all the years past and all our years ahead....
Thursday, September 9, 2010
One of my talented daugthers....
From the time she could first hold a crayon in her small little hands she was an artist. Our daughter could spend many hours coloring pictures, she and I sitting at her child's size table with the tiny chairs, side by side, content in our world. She was a neat, stay-in-the-lines type, not the scribbler. Page after page in a coloring book, or on clean white typing paper making drawings of smiling people and rainbows. The only other intent childhood activity she had such purpose with was playing with her babydolls.
In her teens she took lessons at the local Community Arts program as she wanted more that what she was able to do at school. The hitch...it was a "Live Model" class and she was a minor. I had to give permission for her to take the class. We laughed when she said that the models seem to be all retirement age versus younger people. Many of the volunteer model's were from the nearby Retirement Community. Her professional attitude was not the nakedness of the model but the study of her art detail.
She worked endlessly to perfect hands and eyes. I felt I was looking at the work of Michelangelo's sketches. These parts that were so hard to make feel real to the eye. I am the keeper of these priceless works that she has left here tucked in sketchbooks, large art paper and as well as her art portfolio. It is a treasure of my daughter's talent that I knew she always had.
A gift needs to be nurtured with plenty of time and ample supplies. Boxes of crayons and watercolors moved to colored markers to colored pencils and then to pastels and charcoal. My father, in his artist wisdom enjoyed the artist blossoming in his granddaughter. After his death my mom gave us his watercolor paints, canvases, and sketchbooks. I wish he had some of his sketches still in those books for K. to have seen. He loved watercolors but his skill in sketching out his watercolor to be were derived from his education in Architecture. Both he and K. have similarities. They both worked silently and alone. Clean of distraction. I wish he had lived long enough to have seen the artist she has become as he would have been immensely proud of what she has created.
A most treasured item that came to us after Papa's death was his small teak folding chair that he would sit upon while out sketching. This K. took to using while she did her work at her drafting table. While it is up in the barn in storage it is a chair I could never let go of. Two of the most disciplined artists have used that special chair.
When K. creates a new drawing and tells me on the phone about it I imagine her leaning over her paper with charcoal pencil in hand. I wonder what she might be thinking as the drawing comes to life. Many drawings she has done are quite large and I can't figure out how she keeps them protected. I can still see us drawing together. I would ask, "What are you going to draw?" and she would smile, pause, look at me, "What are you going to make mommy?". It wasn't so much what we would each be drawing, it was about us being together as we did our 'Art'. Praising each other for what we did and drawing some more.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Out...in a place I have no memory of
The report is that my broken wrist is a doozy. I have an "Acute undisplaced comminuted fracture of the distal radius, extending into the radiocarpal joint, with dorsal angulation but no significant displacement". So say the Radiologist. It will be necessary for me to have to be put out to have it reset. This scares me as I have never been put out with anesthesia.
The nurse helped me along with my Love to the gurney out in the hall. I lay down, had a pillow placed under my head and began to shiver. The nurse asked me to breath more fully and explained she would be putting my IV line in now. I closed my eyes and just tried to calm down but this was all so unsettling to me. I could feel my Love's hand stroking my hair. While she put the line in she said she would give me some pain medicine. Thank goodness was all I could think, give me some drugs. What was my pain level? I told her about a six. Maybe this would calm my shivers. Am I in shock?
I hear the nurse's voice asking how long has it been since I ate or drank to my Love and I. Several hours by now we said. I hear a man's voice, another nurse, who says the Dr. will not be available till near 10:00. Since they will have to put me out for a brief time it is just as well that the Dr. will be coming late as it allows my body to deal with the little I did eat and drink. I am grateful I didn't have much as I might have had to wait longer! What time is it? How many hours can one be left in the ER? So much waiting. I know those with more serious health issues are seen first. I am not in that group.
The female nurse says she is going to give me the pain medicine which is Dilaudid. Or that is what my Love and I thought she said. She said she would push it slow and to let her know if I start feeling any relief. I have never had this medication so I don't know what to expect. Up to this point I have been shaking, shivering and chattering of teeth almost violently. The nurse had thought it was more from pain but I believe I was just scared. Even the warm blankets didn't help. I felt in a short matter of minutes the relaxing of my body. Like someone had poured warm liquid in my body that went all the way from my head to my toes. I felt heavy, so very heavy and my eyes just gave up trying to open. I heard the nurse ask me how did I feel. I attempted to talk but it was an effort. I could hear the nurse and my Love talk I just didn't care to be in the present myself. Just drift to wherever. The annoying shivers and chattering teeth had faded away.
It was an odd awakening when I noticed I was having trouble swallowing. I tried but I was having to do it in slow motion. I tried to open my eyes and reach for my Love grasping his hand. Trying to tell him I couldn't swallow and needing to swallow was not easy. I felt myself panic hoping that he would understand what I meant. He flagged a nurse to tell her that I was having some trouble with my swallowing. I kept attempting to though I felt like the ability was stopped. Finally after several more swallows I felt like the medication was lightening up. In fact I didn't really feel like it had helped that much with the pain. He kept asking if I was able to swallow.
Time just kept ticking away with no end, to getting this over and moving on to healing. The ache in my wrist had started to come back. I told the nurse it was hurting again. She said she would see about some more pain medication. The male nurse came over and said we were moving me to the casting room. Progress! I was rolled into the first room I had been in, brief as it was. We were told Dr. S. was here and he would be seeing me shortly. My Love tried to stay near me but he needed to be out of the way because now everyone had a task to do. My IV was being worked, I had the thingys for my heart hooked up. I counted four medical workers in there before the Dr. even came in. I wondered why so many would be in here for a broken wrist.
Dr. S. came in with a whisk of let's get to work. He came and introduced himself to us and explained what had happened to my wrist in my fall. I of course had fallen hard, well that was clear from the x-ray. He explained that I had two options. He could cast me up but because it was such a crushing on the bone it might not set up well and would likely have me in a cast for two months. Also the potential for arthritis later on would be more likely as well. The other option was to have surgery to put a plate and pins in which would heal much better and faster. Also the chance for arthritis would be less. The decision was clear for me. Surgery. So for now he would have to set my wrist and then splint it. I was to make an appointment on Monday to come see him. For now he would put me into dream land and then I could go home. My Love would need to leave the room for now.
I am asked to count backwards from twenty. I do and make it all the way. Hhhmmmm I am thinking to myself. Aren't I suppose to be out? He asks me to count backwards once again and I make it to 15 and then I am gone. So what do I remember? Warmth in my hand, wrist and up to my elbow. Warmth and I know I am moaning. I hear myself moaning and I am thinking I have woken up during the process before he is done. I hear Dr. S. talking to me but I don't recall what he said. Once I come to clarity of mind I felt a weight on my arm and saw that it was in a sling. He says everything went well. (Don't they all have to say that?) The removal of the heart thingy, and taking out my IV is done. I still felt odd in my mind. Not all there. Dr. S. had given prescriptions to be filled for me which my Love had done while I was under. At last we can leave.
Home to bed....11:00 when we leave the hospital...11:30 and I am tucked in by my Love in our bed. Our bed that is so high that it is quite hard to get onto with only one arm. He asks me if I need anything to wake him up. How will I sleep? I can't sleep on my side as I normally do. Pillows, I need another pillow for support. The sling I am in I am suppose to keep on as well as to elevate my arm to help with the swelling. I was given Vicodin and I pray it will put me out and soon. My Love goes to give me the drugs with a cup of water. I am feeling so helpless and it reminds me of when I had my bulging disk ten years ago. What a day. What a nightmare of a day.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Fear is Real
I am not one to handle fear. Or for that matter anything that entails the unknown, pain, let alone what makes me squeamish. The waiting in the ER seemed to heighten and bring out those demons.
I realized when my Love left I had his cell phone and could not call him if and when they finally took me to the ER exam room. Behind me was a mother, father and son who had come in shortly before my Love had left to get some food. The son looked to be about 15 and was in his practice football gear which was pads, oversize team shirt and the skinny/tight football pants. His arm like mine, was cradled by his good arm. His splint was cardboard with a bag of mostly melted ice. I overheard the mom and dad talking about if he would be playing soon. I saw that wrist and I could bet it was broken. How or what would make a parent think more about football than their son hurting with a possible broken wrist? The mom then was saying the next day was team photos. They had to go. Wow. What about talking to your son lady? I wanted to turn around in that full waiting room and console the young man. Me with the wrist hurting wanted to be a mom and console that boy. The heck with football. I was silently grateful that Ryan did not do football.
Sure enough my name was called and my Love was not back. I was led to one of the exam rooms where I sat all alone....waiting. Just because I was here did not mean I wouldn't be waiting some more. Then another nurse came in and said they had to move me. I was led to a small room with one chair. They are remodeling the E R and this was the former triage room. I'm realizing I am going to have to go pee soon and dreading how I will do this. I look up at the clock and see that it is near 7:00. Hours ago I had a normal wrist.
My Love comes in and and I am relieved by his presence. He actually had gone to In-N-Out Burger! I'm sort of hungry on hearing this. A male nurse comes in and says he needs some more x-rays. Why? Well, off we go again. Three of the same ones as before are done but with my wrist unwrapped this time. I was feeling the icky feeling rising up and the pain as I am asked to move my arm in the three positions.
Back in the little room I feel cold and start to shiver. I ask the nurse who comes by for a blanket. AAAHHH the warm blanket that reminded me of after the birth of R. when I was shivering so crazy. Quickly my body relaxes. My Love and I chat silly things.....I really think this is a lousy way to spend a perfectly good Friday. I want to be home with my kids cooking dinner and laughing, glass of wine would be good too.
Another nurse comes in and does my vitals asks the same question of what happened. I start to shiver once again. My teeth are chattering as well. When will I get to have a doctor look at my wrist I think to myself. She asks if it hurts on a scale of 1 to 10. I say about 6. She tells me she will get something for the pain. At last because the Aleve I took earlier is not helping. She also asks when I last ate or drank. Well I had a Trader Joe's fruit bar and some water. She mentions she will be back but it seemed like forever.
I suggest that this might be a good time to use the loo to my Love. I can manage the doing but need help with the zipping up. I feel like a little, helpless kid. At least I am comfortable somewhere in my body. The shivering and chattering of my teeth begins again.
Her return is welcome. She says she wants to have me come lay on the gurney where she wants to put an IV line in. It is explained that the Orthopedic Dr. may have to set my arm and that I would be put out for this procedure, thus the need for the IV line. My shivering and chattering teeth are escalating. Oh my God, why did I take that awful fall?
I realized when my Love left I had his cell phone and could not call him if and when they finally took me to the ER exam room. Behind me was a mother, father and son who had come in shortly before my Love had left to get some food. The son looked to be about 15 and was in his practice football gear which was pads, oversize team shirt and the skinny/tight football pants. His arm like mine, was cradled by his good arm. His splint was cardboard with a bag of mostly melted ice. I overheard the mom and dad talking about if he would be playing soon. I saw that wrist and I could bet it was broken. How or what would make a parent think more about football than their son hurting with a possible broken wrist? The mom then was saying the next day was team photos. They had to go. Wow. What about talking to your son lady? I wanted to turn around in that full waiting room and console the young man. Me with the wrist hurting wanted to be a mom and console that boy. The heck with football. I was silently grateful that Ryan did not do football.
Sure enough my name was called and my Love was not back. I was led to one of the exam rooms where I sat all alone....waiting. Just because I was here did not mean I wouldn't be waiting some more. Then another nurse came in and said they had to move me. I was led to a small room with one chair. They are remodeling the E R and this was the former triage room. I'm realizing I am going to have to go pee soon and dreading how I will do this. I look up at the clock and see that it is near 7:00. Hours ago I had a normal wrist.
My Love comes in and and I am relieved by his presence. He actually had gone to In-N-Out Burger! I'm sort of hungry on hearing this. A male nurse comes in and says he needs some more x-rays. Why? Well, off we go again. Three of the same ones as before are done but with my wrist unwrapped this time. I was feeling the icky feeling rising up and the pain as I am asked to move my arm in the three positions.
Back in the little room I feel cold and start to shiver. I ask the nurse who comes by for a blanket. AAAHHH the warm blanket that reminded me of after the birth of R. when I was shivering so crazy. Quickly my body relaxes. My Love and I chat silly things.....I really think this is a lousy way to spend a perfectly good Friday. I want to be home with my kids cooking dinner and laughing, glass of wine would be good too.
Another nurse comes in and does my vitals asks the same question of what happened. I start to shiver once again. My teeth are chattering as well. When will I get to have a doctor look at my wrist I think to myself. She asks if it hurts on a scale of 1 to 10. I say about 6. She tells me she will get something for the pain. At last because the Aleve I took earlier is not helping. She also asks when I last ate or drank. Well I had a Trader Joe's fruit bar and some water. She mentions she will be back but it seemed like forever.
I suggest that this might be a good time to use the loo to my Love. I can manage the doing but need help with the zipping up. I feel like a little, helpless kid. At least I am comfortable somewhere in my body. The shivering and chattering of my teeth begins again.
Her return is welcome. She says she wants to have me come lay on the gurney where she wants to put an IV line in. It is explained that the Orthopedic Dr. may have to set my arm and that I would be put out for this procedure, thus the need for the IV line. My shivering and chattering teeth are escalating. Oh my God, why did I take that awful fall?
Saturday, September 4, 2010
When You Only Can Use One Arm
I realize that my broken wrist is only for a short time in my life. I have made some observations however that I can be bugged about or laugh about. I will choose to laugh about and share what can be very frustrating.
1. Undressing and dressing...choose the easiest items you can. I would have been trapped in an over-the-head dress if My Love had not been here.
2. Ditto to jeans or any zip up item. It can be embarrassing if you need to ask a stranger to zip your pants (button too) if you don't have a friend or family nearby.
3. Showering brings a new challenge when you have a cast that won't allow you to bend your lower arm. Plus you have to wear a bag (we used the newspaper bag) to keep it dry. I also had to hold it up to keep the water off my arm as much as possible. I am exhausted by the time I get out.
Newspaper bags are so handy!
4. I can't squeeze shampoo into my other hand. Thank goodness the soap dish is handy to use! Using a bar of soap is a joke. I use my puffy bath thingy that can hang on the sqeegee hook so I can squeeze bath gel onto it.
5. I can only shave under one arm. I can only put deodorant under one arm though I am getting better at doing that.
6. Dixie Cups are quite useful. Upside down I put my face lotion and hair volume gel on their own cups and can use my good hand to apply. I am however grateful that I don't wear makeup as I can't even imagine the ordeal of applying and removing it all would be!
7. I cannot use knives. I ask for help for cutting my food.
8. I cannot use a can opener. We only have a manual one not an electric.
9. I cannot open jars.
10. I cannot tie a bow.
11. Cooking is a hazard or a joke. Simple meals or someone else does the cooking.
12. Washing dishes is a joke. Round items go round and round. I can't do wine glasses period, and I cannot say for sure that anything is clean. Period. I am grateful for having a dishwasher (man or machine).
13. Laundry. Yes I can get a load going but folding is very slow. Hanging clothes is awkward and slow.
14. Did I say I have Tendonitis in my good arm? This has surely slowed the healing of that.
15. In the words of Robin Williams from the movie Mrs. Doubtfire, the Horizontal Mamba is not happening. The last thing on my mind is having sex while I have a tree trunk on my arm.
16. Speaking of bed...finding a comfortable position takes time. I am tucked in by My Love...pillow under the knees, pillow next to me for the bum arm. Sheets are such a pain to pull up because of the pillow next to my body. I have to try and get the stupid bedding to go over it as it tends to not budge if I get up in the night.
17. I love my high bed but I have to say it is a challenge to climb onto. It might as well be a mountain.
18. I cannot change the sheets on the bed.
19. Folding sheets is impossible.
20. I cannot iron. I have to confess I like to iron and I like most of my clothes ironed. My basket is getting full. Anyone like to iron? I'll make you lunch! Oops! I can't do that...I will take you out to lunch!
21. Grocery shopping is not a problem per say, though using plastic bags in the produce department is not easy. The bags don't like to stay open. Thankfully other shoppers take pity on you and offer to help.
22. I cannot give myself a full mani-pedi. Partial yes. I cannot file the hand that needs it most.
23. Typing on the computer with one hand is slow and makes me feel stupid. I am constantly making mistakes!
24. I cannot blow dry my hair with only one hand....unless you have a clever husband who rigs up a stand for your blow dryer to be mounted on. It is still exhausting to do but I am happy that I can try to look decent.
You think we could sell these? Blow dryer poles?
25. I cannot clean the litter box.
26. I have an awkward time turning the car on as well as shifting to reverse, drive and park. I have no plans to parallel park. I promise. If R. is with me I ask him to help. I secretly think he thinks this is quite funny with Mom having a hard time with the car. 14 year olds have an odd sense of humor.
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With my new cast I expect to have more mobility. Number 15 will change as now I don't have a tree trunk on my arm. More like a hot pink weighted glove. A hard as rock glove. R. suggested I could pound nails with it. No, I think not. I am accepting whatever way the house looks and not looking down at my floors.
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